HOW DO I STAND UP

It's stoping my mind here and now with in the directive of common sence.
For exampel: If I see my self doing stuff that's pre-programmed (following my percived idea of how i should behave due to taugth concepts how I shall behave) and in that being a slave to my mind, enslaving my self to the presented immage of my self.

So standing up is not the picture presented immage of an 'good' soldier just standing up and obeing order.

Standing up I can do no matter of what position my body has.

I forgivemyself that I have allowed and accepted a picture presented immage of standing up as the physical act of standing up.